Well-this may be my last entry for a little while seeing as things are going to get doubly busy very soon. One week from tomorrow (April 2nd) Jada will be here! We are so ready for her arrival and are praying for a safe baby and delivery. Thank you to all those out there with the same prayer for us!
Sometimes the thought of two little ones running around my house overwhelms me, but in the same sentence, let me add that it brings so much joy to my heart to know that God has entrusted ME with these two little girls. What WAS HE thinking!? :)
I am finding that Lydia is like a sponge-soaking up and imitating most of everything her mommy does and sometimes says. I thought that sponge stage was going to come later! She's only 1.5!
I just hope that I can give her the best water to soak up.
Being a wife and full time stay at home mommy definitely has it's challenging days and lately I have chalked up some of the random thoughts running through my head to the hand of the "pregnancy hormones" and maybe also the nervousness about how my life is about to dramatically change. I'm learning that those things that I thought were important really do not mean much when it comes to spending quality time with the ones you love. It's hard, but I'm starting to teach myself that the dishes in the sink can wait, clothes don't have to be ironed by a certain day, and most messes are cleaned up easily. For me, it's been hard to come to grips with these things-mostly b/c as moms, I think we hold ourselves to those high standards of keeping up a clean, functioning house along with making sure everyone is happy.
I have to be honest, all this thinking about how my time is now going to be divided with the arrival of the new baby, Lydia, Jeff, taking care of the house, and all the other stuff that comes with being a wife and stay at home mom has brought tears to my eyes at moments...tears of fear, tears of anxiousness, tears of frustration...but it's at those times when God's voice, although sometimes so quiet and hidden under the "random thoughts" somehow makes it's way into my heart and ends up overpowering everything else. Just when I feel I need to hear that encouraging word-but there isn't a husband, friend, or child around to share it with you-God reaches down and whispers His perfect Words of Encouragement into my life. He's done this over and over lately -in more than one way - and I feel THAT is what keeps the uneasiness of the unknown at bay in my life. So-all this to say that amongst all the tears of anxiousness and sometimes frustration, I'm finding myself jumping into my Heavenly Father's lap on a regular basis-and I'm learning that it's OK to do that. I'm so thankful that I serve such an awesome God. Lately-it's these words He's encouraged me though.
Philippians 4:6
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
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